Smell Me :)

PJ

2012-03-10T00:28:00.001+11:00

My beloved belated valentines present :$

Hungary

2012-03-03T14:52:00.002+11:00

Hey everyone. Its been a very long time since ive posted and iunno i just feel like there isnt that much to boast abt anymore even though there wasnt that much to boast before lols. So ive just been settling back in aus again after my little trip to vietnam! Not only that but ive also started uni. It isnt as great as i hoped for it to be but i guess its cos i havent really made any new friends even though i had many opportunities to! Yes i do regret it. Ive spent quite a lot on my textbooks already and i want to cry. Not only that, but i still havent purchased my goggles and labcoat. Uni is really starting to sound like a bitch. I have also never read this much in my life before.

I would go on and on but im really hungry. Ps my boyfriend the complete fool did not complete hes so-called "im gonna blog everyday til you come back" posts. Another reason to why he sucks and can never seem to keep his word!

Day 9

2012-02-16T09:15:00.000+11:00

Goodmorning bumm bumm umm had work just then now finished just wainting on the computer for 9:25 so i can get your tutorial times hopefully i get all of them, another 10 mins to goo agahagfhg so nervous I WANNA GET ALL THE TIMES FOR YOU yeww anywho talk soon booboo. boyfee over and out yeww xox.

Day 8

2012-02-15T20:39:00.000+11:00

ohhh snappp :( its day number 8 ahhhhhh miss you baby nothing happened today, i feel sick it was so hot today.. :(

umm hope your having fun in the vietnam the asian town! bahaha
oo oo oo you look so beautiful.
umm eating atm ill call your bum soon love you
boyfee over and out xox.

Day 7 aka VALENTINES!

2012-02-14T20:17:00.001+11:00

happy valentines day my love. i love you so much, you are the love of my life, how much do you love me? i love you heaps :) Today is all about love, i love you heapers

miss you loads babypooobummcheeks. today is a very sad and boring day didnt do anything besides spend most of my time at the shop gay, and facebook has turned all lovey dovey today AND I COULDNT TAKE PART IN IT :( cos your ass is like a kazilllion miles north west from me :(
sighh come back soon

i havent had dinner yet just showered and now talking to your bum
boyfee over and out xoxo love you heaps :D

Day 6

2012-02-13T23:01:00.000+11:00

Sigh tomorrow is valentines day wahhh :( i miss you buttface....umm didnt do much today cos yeh work i nthe morning, afternoon and at night sighhh :(

i wanna see your facee babeee :( ohohoh i farted it smells teehee, work was a drag both work!!
umm im gonna be lonely tomorrowww sigh forever alone until you come back.. we can do a post valentines day thingo cos we awesome :) im thinking pancakes on the rocks? or max brenner or or even a picnic iunno bum you decide i want us to chillax teehee

im talking to you right now HEY SEXY LADY anyways imma talk to you and not distract myself oh oh oh im outside your window :D

Day 5

2012-02-12T13:15:00.000+11:00

Day 5 miss your more.. how was your trip out and about last night babe hope you stayed safe buy anything cool? hows your hair noww? i wanna see ittt bumbum!! the weather yesterday was cold and raining and crap and like today its like absolutely boiling its like 30 something wish you were here we coulda gonna swimmang at our hangz brighton hahahaha but yeh its currently 1.15pm now waiting to eat lunch ive been eating healthy so like i get sexier :D anywhooo hope you had a good sleep umms fb message me when you wake up or what not.
oh oh oh and WHITNEY HOUSTAN passed away today its a sad day :( miss you.. boyfee over and out xox.

Day 4

2012-02-11T13:59:00.001+11:00

HI babyyyyy its saturday weeeee had work early today but supposidly you slept when i woke you REBELLLL. didnt do much this morning went fairfield markets and i bought a usb for my ipod thats it hahaha then went home and now im chilling on my butt. i heard you had crabs last night YUMMYYY hope your doing well and beeing sexyy and and zomg your turning blonde soooon WEEE!!! cutie

tata for now i might nap and hour before work boyfee over and outttt xox.

hey babyyy im home from work.. whatcha up tooo hows the hairr nowww miss yeww anyways i smell like cake omnhomnhom ill call your bumm soon love you heapss boyfee over and out xox.

Day 3

2012-02-10T13:14:00.002+11:00

Miss you sweetpea im eating lunch atm its 1.14pm
hope yoiur doing okay i miss texting you every min :( gonna blog more after i eat taataa
boyfee over and outtt

heyy babyyy hope your doing well i just came home from work all stinky and stuff ewwie right ;)
have you had dinner yet? wait you woudlnt have itll on be like 4ish over there hmm... i think i know what i want now... YOUR SEXY BUM hehehehe anyways eat shower and poop and ill talk to you ass sooonnnnn as i can
over and out boyfee xox.

Day 2

2012-02-09T11:52:00.001+11:00

Goodmorning sweetie :) i had work this morning as usual woke up at 6 was feeling kinda tired but i was okay..
i hope you had a good sleep its 11:51am atm and im sitting on my bum eating yoghurt teehee
hope your doing well ill edit this blog throughout the day love you tata boyfee over and out xox.

12:03pm i gots your first text :)

hi hunny i just got home from work tried calling you but you didnt answer its 7:58pm atm waiting for dinner im having beef and cucumber and tomatoes with rice :) hope you had something nice for lunch bumm ill try calling you again after i shower and eat toodaloo boyfee over and out xox.

Day 1

2012-02-08T13:46:00.001+11:00

Today you flew far away from me :( i came to that realisation when after work i picked up my phone to send you a text message saying im home... then realised you wouldnt be able to see it...
i miss you hun, nothing exciting is happening anymore and my phone lays there dormant "it hasnt gone off once since you left" i might not need my phone for 2 weeks :)..

but yeh this morning ive done nothing but miss you and tonight hopefully you message me that your cute little bottom is in vn safe and sound.. this is your boyfee over and out mwa xox.

heyy im back its 10:27pm right now im usually talking to you bum but im not :( it smells well tonight i had a shower shaved my bum :) kidding umm i had chicken for dinner with rice and lettuce im wondering how your doing.. having fun? is it hot over there? hope i dream about your cuteness tonight cos this is the first night ill be all on my lonesome :( hope your doing well love you and nighty night sweetdreams and sleeptight.. this is your boyfeee im out xox.

2012-02-02T21:25:00.002+11:00

bon voyage sydney!

2012-01-18T01:15:00.001+11:00

I want to be different. I want to make an imprint on this earth. But to be different means to change. And to change means I hafto get out of bed and start doing something with my life.

Misunderstandings

2012-01-17T23:29:00.001+11:00

Honestly I do not know how to express how I feel. Lately I've been havin mixed emotions abt everything in my life. I've felt confused, angry, upset, happy and so much more. Caused my friends and family. Sometimes strangers too.

I haven't exactly been motivated to do anything lately. Like looking for a job or go out to mingle with friends. I want to express how I feel right now but at the end of the day, it doesn't matter cos everyone else has their own life to live. I've realised i have only myself to rely on. Like literally. Everyone else is just selfish in their own way. Good or bad. And I've come to the realisation that I too should be selfish and do whatever the heck I want to do. If my friends want to be in my life, then great. They'll make the effort. If my family adores me, then they'll show it. Othrwise they're just another person. If you're being an ass to me. I shall be an ass back. Cos I deserve to be one!

2012-01-14T00:34:00.001+11:00

Moments ago I was told something and found it inspirational especially since lately I've been finding it difficult to accept the fact that im still living in the past.

Cut the strings attached to your past or else it's just gonna keep pulling you back. But at the end of the day it's up to you. The right choices are always the hardest.

2012-01-11T13:41:00.000+11:00

Everyone is desperate for the happiness that breezes through the world. Some are lucky and some aren't.

Blue Stars and Wishful Dreams

2012-01-08T02:20:00.001+11:00

I've come to the realisation that life is full of surprises. Last year was one of the hardest year of my life. So many uneventful things have happened that I wish I can erase but it was the people who were there for me that I'm grateful for.

I'm grateful for having my boyfriend. Who was always there for me. Who took care of me and looked after me at my worse. The one who told me everything was going to be okay when everything was at it's worst.

I'm grateful for the best friend who picked up his phone at 2 in the morning to listen to heartache.

2011 was an uneventful year with painful memories however there were plentiful happy memories. I told myself that 2012 is going to be my year. Where I make my dreams come true. Where bad habits will disappear and where happiness shall be found.

My nye was not the best day but at the end of the day, it was better than ever. This year will be my year. No one will ruin it for me cos honestly I think I deserve something like this for once. As selfish as it sounds.

2012-01-05T03:22:00.001+11:00

Like the sun needs the moon
Like an orphan needs an extra room
I need youu

Last Day

2011-12-31T00:46:00.001+11:00

The year is coming to another end yet once again. It's strange how everything seems to work. Like why are we celebrating a new year? For a new start? For new hopes and dreams that we desire for to come true? I'm not entirely sure but I know each year I always wish for something more. Something different.

This year I've learnt a lot. Friends can't always be there and will disappoint but *insert something positive*. Boyfriends wont always be considerate but fair. Parents will always be right even when you don't want to admit it. School did matter but I will try harder in uni.

It's been one heck of a year but I managed through it. A lot has happened and not always was it easy. I have survived another 365 days of my life and yet there is another 365 to embrace. I'm not exactly sure what I'm tryna say but I have a weird feeling abt 2012 and what it may bring. And my nipple itches lol.

2011-12-29T01:03:00.001+11:00

You're not worth the trouble anymore. I'm tired of pulling all the weight. Screw you

Money

2011-12-24T01:03:00.001+11:00

Went shopping today at parra. Only ended up with a couple pair of shorts and a small top thingy. Boo hoo realised I didn't buy any new shoes :( should've bought a couple of flats and shorts :( totes regret it now :/

Nts; rubi shoes flats, ice & factorie shorts, dolly dress and I guess that's it. Might go back to parra on tues on moms day off hehehe.

Shoopppangg on Monday. So excited. Haven't had pepper lunch in over a year now. Lol haven't been to city for over a year tbh! (except excursions! which was twice anyways -.-) I'm rather excited but I feel bad for my hunny bunny. He always does what I want and honestly I don't always realise it cos of my selfishness.

I'm grateful that I have him cos without him I'm useless. I can't cook, I can't sing, I don't have the brains, I'm jobless, I can't drive and so many more others. If I keep naming them my self esteem will drop.

21 months and 7 days.

Why Hello There World

2011-12-17T23:50:00.002+11:00

Whatta Joke

2011-12-17T00:08:00.001+11:00

Happy 21 Months.

White Rain

2011-12-11T23:39:00.001+11:00

Today was a rather slow day. My mother was called to work last minute so I had spent my lunchtime with the darling boyfriend at yum cha. It was an absolutely beautiful weather this morning before it stroke 12. Shortly afterwards the rain came pouring down. It had ruined our plans to go casula markets but nevertheless we ended up going to livo markets. I'm so povo.

Wandered around and found this absolutely cute store that sells uber pretty dresses for reasonable prices. The boyfriend bought me a pretty white summery dress. It's like short and there's a thin lacey material over it that goes down to the floor. I absolutely adore it. Saw my precious biffle. She was at work in her pretty pink shirt and reindeer antlers. How adorable.

Afterwards headed back to my place to play some maple but the boyfriend kept distracting me by snuggling into my armpits. Weird right? Think he has some kind of weird fetish. just lofted around til 4.30 before he had to head off to work.

My day wasn't exactly great but it's better than nothing. I guess I should clean my wardrobe tmrw. Sigh cbb but I know I should. Have so many unwanted clothing items.

That Boy

2011-12-11T00:54:00.001+11:00

I haven't really realised til lately that I'm nearing towards my 2 years anniversary soon. Like it hasn't really hit me yet cos it has yet it hasn't felt that long. I've grown attached to someone I never thought I would and that's the best part. I can honestly say he's not my best friend. Kidding. We do everything togetherrrr. Well not everything but any weird stuff that comes to your head, most probably has happened.

Honestly I don't think we had taken any photos together until we hit our first month anni. Over the past year and such we haven't taken as many as other couples have. However I do cherish the ones that have been taken. My boyfriend is so photogenic *coughs. I remember our first real date. We went to the city, lazed around near the opera house and bought a $9 milkshake. Til this day I still don't find it worth it's value!

I remember for our 3 months he appeared at the bottom of my stairs with a pinkish flower. I dunno how to spell it :( but I loved it. I remember for our 5 months I came to his uni to surprise him. And I remember the weeks after that that I panicked not knowing what to buy him for our 6 months. I ended up buying him one of those I.D bracelets, engraved with "I'm tank".

I guess after that things got rocky. Things eventually brightened up and got back together slowly. I remember my valentines gift I received from dwee. It was a mug with my name engraved on it. Then hit our one year. I ended up buying him cologne. Took forever to get it and not only that, apparently I got ripped off for it :( my birthday drew near and he took me to featherdale wildlife park. That day is one of my favorite days. I felt happy and young. It was a getaway I needed and I appreciate it so much.

18 months came and I had purchased dwee a celtics hat. Sadly I'm low on cash once again and wasn't able to spoil my boyfriend silly for his birthday. Now here we are. Nearly 21 months in. This boy is someone special. He knows all my secrets. My troubles. My problems. And especially knows how to make me smile.

2011-12-04T00:39:00.001+11:00

What do you have:
[x] Mother
[ ] Father
[ ] Step-Father
[ ]Step-Mother
[ ] Step-Sister
[ ] Step Brother
[x] Brother
[ ] Brother In Law
[ ] Sister
[ ] Sister In Law
[ ] Half sister
[ ] Half brother
[ ] Nephew
[ ] Niece
[x] Boyfriend
[ ] Girlfriend
[x] Mobile phone
[ ] own bathroom
[x] Own Room
[ ] Have/had a Swimming pool
[ ] Have/had a hottub
[ ] Guest room
[x] Living Room
[x] Own Computer
[ ] Own TV
Total: 7

[x] Twin size/Queen bed
[x] More than 8 pairs of shoes
[x] sunnys
[x] MP3 Player/iPod
[x] PS2/PS3
[x] X-Box
[x] Nintendo DS or PSP
[ ] Gameboy/Advance
[ ]Gamecube
[ ]Wii
[ ] Your Own Laptop
Total so far: 14

[ ] basketball/netball hoop
[ ]Air hockey table
[ ] Pool table
[ ] Ping pong table
[ ] Fooseball table (who has one of these??)
TOTAL so far: 14

[ ] Nightstand
[ ] Stereo in bedroom
[ ] DVD player in bedroom/portable
total so far: 14

[x] Goes shopping at least once a week
[x] Expensive cologne/perfume
[x] AIM/MSN
[x] Camera on phone
total so far: 18

[ ] Electric or gas scooter/4x4/motorcycle/car/go kart/race car
[ ] guitar/drums/bass guitar
[x] Piano/Keyboard
[ ] any other instrument
[x] Been on a cruise
[x] Traveled out of the country
[x] Traveled out of the continent
[x] Had a personal trainer
[x] expensive jewelery
[x] Met a Celeb
total so far: 25

[x] straightener/curling iron
[ ] Have been to a batting cage
[ ] Have $100 on you right now in your pocket/ wallet
[ ] Credit card or atm card or debit card or bank card
[ ] Have a tv
[x] Mirror in your room
[x] Window in your room
[x] More than 3 bedrooms in your house
[ ] Been to Paris
[ ]Been to Rome
[ ] Been to the Bahamas
[ ] Been to Mexico
[ ] Been to Jamaica
total so far: 29

[x] Parent/s have a car
[ ] Have owned or own a Jet ski/boat
[ ] (had/have)Camper Trailer
[x] Been to 3+ states
[x] 80+ buddies and facebook/myspace
total so far: 32

[x] home cooked meal almost everyday
[ ] Been in a limo
[ ] Been in a helicopter
[x] Own a camera
[ ] Have been to disney land/World more than 2 times
total: 34

Post as the number that you get)
1-22 = Ghetto
23-33 = Average Teen
34-39 = Spoiled TEEN
40+ = Upper Class Snob

What A Beautiful Day

2011-12-03T12:50:00.001+11:00

Ive barely been awake for 3 hours and the day seems like a drag already. Everything feels artificial and it feels like i have no willpower to get out of bed anymore. All i do is lounge around hoping that something good would happen throughout the day. I dont even have the strength to sit up and play maple anymore.

Just day after day, stuck in this little room of mine has made me come to the realisation that my life really does suck. You all might be telling me theres absolutely nothing wrong with being stuck at home all day everyday. That it would be heaven. But i'd rather complain abt being tired from working all day long or going out and having too much fun. It definitely does sound so much better than 'im tiredd from all this lounging around doing nothing' cos honestly it sounds pathetic.

My room isnt like my best friend anymore. Its more like my prison and everyday i rot in it hoping that one day i'd be free of it. And no i dont go out cos i cant always ask my mom for money. And no finding a job isnt easy. Not like im trying anyways. Sigh. Now im gonna go rot in hell. Tata

Lies

2011-11-26T00:04:00.001+11:00

Life after high school is not as fun as I thought it would be. Stuck at home 24/7, no job, no money and a whole lotta sleepless nights due to boredom. I guess this summer is gonna be boring. Not going overseas nor going gold coast.

So my formal was on Wednesday. Though it is sad to admit that there wasn't much photos. Which is bad for me is cos I cant remember much as to what had happened that night.

Umm the boyfriend is going stereosonic tmrw. Yippe for me. Swear my social life has died. Only people I talk to is my brother, mom and sometimes boyfriend. I always wondered what life after high school was like. Now I'm just like I wish I talked to more people. And for those people saying oh I probably have friends. Lols I do but they don't talk to me nor do I talk to them. Great relationship isn't it?

Everything feels artificial. I don't know how to explain it but it does. Anyways it's 12 ish I think and I'm sitting here talking abt rubbish. Have you ever come to the point where you realise that you're missing out on so much more than you know. I just feel that my mom still treats me like I'm 5, my friends are like strangers - as though I don't know who they are anymore and a boyfriend who has a bedtime of 10 - possibly 9.30 sometimes.

I just need something but I don't know what. The rainy weather makes me feel tired. Like I can't get out of bed. Just iunno I love it. I honestly do but sometimes it just kills the mood yknow what I'm saying? Maybe around the corner, life has something lovely installed for me

List Me

2011-11-15T11:15:00.001+11:00

Height: 174cm i think
Shoe Size: 7-8
Sexual Orientation: gay
Do you Smoke? no
Do you Drink? yes, water tastes very lovely
Do you Take Drugs? no but i would like to taste brownies and mushrooms :D
Age you get mistaken for: 18-20
Have Tattoos? no
Want any tattoos? yesssss
Got any Piercings? yerh
Want any piercings? second piercings and tragus
Best friend? my bumhole
Relationship status: taken
Biggest turn ons: tall guys. THE V LINE THING :D
Biggest turn offs: socks with thongs
Favorite Movie: UP!
I’ll love you if: you buy me a lot of food to eat :D
Someone you miss: my boyfriend
Most traumatic experience: i would not like to discuss this
A fact about your personality: i can be very possessive
What I hate most about myself: my giant feet
What I love most about myself: my bumhole
What I want to be when I get older: rich
My relationship with my sibling(s): ongoing
My relationship with my parents: traumatic
My idea of a perfect date: running away to a far away land
My biggest pet peeves: i talk abt my boyfriend too much
A description of the girl/boy I like: she is very pretty with short hair and lovely brown eyes. she has pink nipples and a lovely pair of buttocks. but most of all i love her smile
A description of the person I dislike the most: weirdo
A reason I’ve lied to a friend: i didnt want to upset their feelings
What I hate the most about school: learning
What my last text message says: your bum
What words upset me the most: eff youuu
What words make me the best about myself: bum
A wish that I’ve wished for repeatedly on 11:11: im not sure..
What I find attractive in girls. im not sure.. boobs?
Where I would like to live. rome
One of my insecurities. i have a lot
My childhood career choice. doctor
My favorite ice cream. i have a lot :D mainly rainbow, chocolate and mango
Who I wish I could be. someone better
Where I want to be right now. in dwee's closet so i can help him come out of there *wink wink
The last thing I ate. cereall
Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately. me
A random fact about anything. a monkey's pinky is called a toilet claw

:)

2011-11-07T18:00:00.002+11:00

i love you x)

HEHEHOHO

2011-11-04T17:45:00.000+11:00

So hey. Hsc. Bleh. MAPLESTORY IS DOWN. Gahhh. So i will let you guys pity me and read this whatever it is.

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
OF COURSE :)
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
Well ive already dated an 18 year old :3
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
Im not sure.. Maybe today when i realised maple is down but i still got to snuggle up next to my boyfriend
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
Of course. Why wouldnt you. I like it when people smile at me :)
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
I dont think so..
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
Was watching jersey shore before. GET CRAZY GET LOUDD
7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
Shorts and a singlet <>
8. How often do you listen to music?
Rarely. Its usually maple or movie/tv show or both :3
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
I dont own sweats. So i guess jeans more
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012?
I dont know. Who knows. We have like 2 months before the year ends.
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
ANTISOCIAL MOTHER FC*KERS
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
NUPS. ONLY 'G'
13. What about ‘R’?
^
14. Can you drive a stick shift?
No. But an auto has a stick too so yes :)
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
I say i dont but i guess i do. Like seriously, no one likes anyone else talking bad abt them.
16. Are you going out of town soon?
Im not sure. Might be going gold coast or VIETNAM with the BOYFRIENDDDDD. But dunno doesnt matter. Just as long as i spend the summer with him. Dont think i can last a few days without seeing his face :(
17. When was the last time you cried?
Last night. Teared up when i was watching 'The Land Before Time'. When Littlefoot's mom died :'(
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
I try to tell my boyfriend everyday.
19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
YES DEFINITELY. STUPID ASIAN EYES. Would have something exotic like green and brown mixed. I was a fan of blue but just so many people have it.
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
Theres 2 girls i would do anything for :$ dwee and geri :$
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
MAPLESTORY IS DOWN. CAN YOU GET IT THROUGH YOUR HEAD?
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
I guess so. I like it cos dwee does it all the time. Esp when i tell him that i dont want to kiss cos i know i have bad breath hohohohohohohohoho
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
DUH. WE TALK EVERY MINUTE OF EVERYDAY OF EVERY SECOND OF EVERY FINANCIAL YEAR OF EVERY something...
24. What are you sitting on right now?
The edge of my bed
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
My boyfriend
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
No. I want someTHING but i know i'll never have it cos its too expensive :'(
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
I think geri? I said goodnight to her
28. Do you get a lot of colds?
No not really cos im tank. Unlike my boyfriend
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
Cotton On
30. Does anyone hate you?
Iunno but HATERS GONA HATE. Tehehehehehehe.
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
No. I have empty chip packets hidden in my room
32. Do you like watching scary movies?
HELL NO
33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
Im not a big fan of piercings cos i hate pain
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
Year 7 or 8. Was just outta control. Too tb for my liking hahahaha
35. Did you have a dream last night?
Yes. A really weird one in fact.
36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
Today
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
I dont know but its a nice thought.
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
Uh no
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Uh no
40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
Uh yes durh
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
Uh no. Jokes yerhh
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
Most definitely. Im seeing my girlyfriend Greg.
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
Of course. I look in the mirror and i say 'hey baby youre so fine youre so fine you blow my mind hey baby' its in the eyes man
44. What’s the best part about school?
Not going to it
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
I guess so
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
No. You talk. Like normal people do unless you have like really cool secrets and stuff :3
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
Yes a lot of the times which is not a very good thing.
48. Were you single over the last summer?
Yes i was i think
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
Hahahahhahaahahahaha no
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Studying.
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
YES I DO SO VERY MUCH. Jokes. Love her. I mean him.
52. Are you nice to everyone?
I guess i am unless i dont like the way someone is acting towards me.
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
Yerhhh
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
Hahahahahahahhahahaha no. Kidding
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Sometimes. Not always
56. Do you think you like someone?
Nah
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
No
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
Im not sure.. :/
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
Yes heaps
60. Do you hate anyone?
Yes. You.
61. How’s your heart?
Its still pumping blood. Yknow. The usual stuff
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
Yerh quite a few things
63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
I'd be lying if i were to say no
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
Dont know. HATERS GONA HATE
65. Are your toenails painted pink?
No. I rarely paint my toenails
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
Oh definitely *does sloppy kiss noise
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
No. Its heartbreaking seeing anyone cry. Let alone your boyfriend
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
Yes.
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
I think my mom
70. How do you look right now?
Atrocious
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
Hahahahhhahahahahahahahaaha definitely *fanny farts
72. Can you commit to one person?
Uh dont think so
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
I guess so
74. Have you ever felt replaced?
Yes
75. Did you wake up cranky?
Not really. Just wanted to play maple but didnt
76. Are you a jealous person?
Definitely yes
77. Are relationships ever worth it?
Im not sure. Depends i guess
78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
Yerhh.. Maple is being a bitch to me :/
79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
No not really. Say my boyfriends face already
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Piss in the toilet while standing up
81. Last person you cried in front of?
My monitor
82. Is there someone you will never forget?
Yerh. My turtle
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
Hell no. He wouldnt care if i leave him for hours playing maple
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
Iunno kick his ass in kung fu
85. Are you over your past?
Nah not really
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
I guess thats why im dating him
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
Yerh my best girlyfriends
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
Nah. Who would do that anyways
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
YERH. Sneak him into my wardrobe and keep him as a pet
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
Yerh. Cant help but have these big guns yknow what i mean *brows
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
I dont know. You tell me mister
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
Yerh a few
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
Noo..
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
Yes i was. Im not sure. My maths is bad right now
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
Hahahahah it was my one year
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA OH BABY YES
97. Who do you have texts from?
Just mainly the 2 girlyfriends
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
I would just cry
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
Funny question
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
Me myself and i.
101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
Yerhh.
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
Hehehehheeheehehe :$

Anyways imma go and watch my jersey shore i think. Wait for my stupid maple to load. ZOMG I CAN PLAY OMGPOP. YES I SHALL. TTYL my little bunny rabbits

2011-10-22T08:55:00.001+11:00

i love you baby you will get through this HSC i know it :D

2011-10-19T19:58:00.001+11:00

RAGE QUIT

Isnt That Cute?

2011-10-13T21:44:00.000+11:00

This is a picture of a married couple getting their tattoos together. Isnt that adorable?

2011-10-13T20:50:00.002+11:00

And my beating heart will pour out your symphony

Gonna Take Ya Away From Harm

2011-09-28T18:10:00.002+10:00

I realise i never make time for my blog anymore. I can always seem to make time for my tumblr and facebook but i never manage to make time to stop what im doing and dot some stuff down. I miss blogging. Hsc is scaring me. Like seriously. It is. Only less than 3 weeks to go and i feel so unprepared. As much as i complain and tell myself im going to get my act together, look at what im doing. Im checking my facebook. Im browsing through tumblr. Actually i didnt touch tumblr today but i have a feeling i might later on. I dont know. Just yerh.

So one of my dress has arrived. And my gosh, issert a pain to put on. I had to ask geri to help me put it on. But nevertheless, it is so nice. Its so frilly and pink (left peach one). I absolutely adore it. Though everyone is more keen on me wearing the other one (the right one). But hey, worse comes to worse i have a dress to do a late maccas run once i finish the hsc!

Im just hoping that after hsc, my mom becomes more lenient and that i'll be able to go out whenever i want. If not, then all the things she has promised me is a bunch of lies! I just feel that im just in that awkward middle bit of life. Where im stuck in between being a kid and an adult. Though it is called being a teenager. But, its more like between being a teenager and an adult. Where i realise sooner or later im gonna be growing up though at the same time i wish i was there already so it'd be easier. But yet who wouldnt want to relive their childhood. Where everything is so sweet like candy.

In all honesty, i loved my childhood. Even though school wasnt the best, i love my family. Despite the times where i didnt eat my school lunch and i got the asian broom to my butt. But any asian out there would understood how that feels. Well not asian broom. My mom used chopsticks. THOUGH it has stopped!! I dont know which is worse, being hit on the butt by chopsticks or getting your phone taken away from you. But who cares, im a mature kid now :3 Dont need to be treated like a baby anymore tehehehehehehe.

ANYWAYS i should stop talking. I must be boring as hell. Toodles my little bunny rabbits

Gonna take ya for a ride on a big jet plane

2011-09-26T12:40:00.002+10:00

2011-09-13T20:25:00.001+10:00

I just literally felt my education fly out of the window. Literally. I want to cry.

2011-09-12T23:05:00.001+10:00

On This Day In 2009

Duy Tranneeds a haircut.

Melanie Hoang& i want you to be the one that first pops in my head when i wake up

DOPE

2011-09-10T13:16:00.001+10:00

Ive realised how much in such a short span of 2 years that i can change so much. Like 2 years may sound a lot yet it doesnt seem that far away. I dont know. I know ive aged terribly. At least im not breaking out with pimples and stuff? Well not just yet lols. I need to study study studddyyyy!!!

I feel so unprepared for hsc. Like no joke. Like shouldnt ibe doing past papers and stuff already? Revising the things i dont know? Im doing notes atm for chem but like it just feels like its taking so much time. Anyways i think im gonna start on a new project soon.

Making printed tees and crewneck sweaters. I dont know why i do these kind of things. I remember i used to sell paper roses. That lasted for a while. But yerh. I want one for myself that says DOPE. The idiot boyfriend that he is (jokes) wants one that says DOPE.Y and he thinks the dot makes its more punctual. Hahaha hes so cute. I miss him already.

Ohh my honeyeater plant is looking rather ravishing today along with my cute little pot of flowers. Though i think its pollinating atm and shall die soon but that means more pretty flowers are soon to blossom. Anyways i should totes get back to my notes. Havent done any all day. Feel rather unproductive cos of it.

2011-08-30T22:21:00.001+10:00

http://amitaytweeto.com/thequietplace/

Just a Few Words

2011-08-30T21:17:00.001+10:00

So over everything. And when i say everything, i literally mean everything. Starting from tmrw im gonna sleep at 9.30-10. Seriously i dont care anymore. I hate socialising. Takes so much effort. I hate being disappointed. Its so heart-wrenching. Iunno. Its just one of those things i dont like. Having expectations that i feel that is rather low but is so high is someone else's eyes. I just hate feeling like i always have to lower my expectation to feel a bit better but whenever i do, my standards go even lower.

I got a new plan. Phone is going to the brother. Might go on another plan to get a new phone for myself. Should hint the boyfriend to buy me a new one. But he wouldnt. Hes too cheap. Jokes. So much money lately for everything.

Just feel so out of it. Still sick as a dog. Its been 2 weeks now. Iunno it comes and goes. A few things i know im despising right now is school, school and you.

This is how ive been feeling lately

day six: show something your bf/gf bought you.

2011-08-26T16:09:00.000+10:00

day five: show a picture with you and your bf/gf.

2011-08-25T19:02:00.000+10:00

sharing the love for red fanta

Close Your Eyes

2011-08-24T22:12:00.000+10:00

lately things have just been hazy and just everything feels like it takes too much effort and i dont want to put anymore into anything. i guess its just one of those things i cant control in my life and just hafto make the best of it. but my question is, how do i do that? how do i make the best of things in a situation where i feel as though its not the best of it. i just want to relax and be able to enjoy life i guess. but its hard especially with the pressure to do well in my hsc. how do people manage? i see my classmates do well but im sitting here wondering why im not doing as well as them. i realised maybe its just me. that i dont motivate myself enough or that im not good as them when it comes to studying. its just one of those things that makes me feel crap abt myself.

i just wish for everything to go away. just so i can breathe in life for just a bit. i swear hsc is gonna be the death of me. i just dont see the point in anything anymore.. and its weird you know? i used to care so much and there was a point where i didnt. and now im trying to care again. but life is just showing me so many reasons as to why i shouldnt. do you kinda get me? i know im rambling. but yerh. i just wish things were simpler but thats not always the case..

day four: do you remember what you first spoke about? if so what?

2011-08-24T20:56:00.000+10:00

i guess the first thing we spoke was abt how i had placed numerous amounts of skittles in his enormous hair. i suppose i had only done that for the amusement for myself cos i had bought him as a slave hawhawhaw. our school had slave day and you buy a group of people and they become your slave for the day (: it was the beginning of a beautifullllll relationship..

..where he had started to call me nigga tits

but i guess after ignoring for some time (ahohohohoho) we grew closer(?) and started to call each other monkeys.

day three: show a picture of your bf/gf.

2011-08-23T18:55:00.000+10:00

not one of my favourite but im guessing its one of his(?)

Supportive Family

2011-08-17T19:25:00.001+10:00

My mom is so supportive when it comes to school. I asked her if it's okay that I drop ipt. She was like "yerh yerh sure whatever you want. I'll even sign papers for you to drop out! Then you can go get a job." duh pho ga. So much support :( but yerh confessed that my grandfather told me that I hafto do well :(

Anyways I'm gonna be going on a new plan soon. How cool is that! But giving the phone to the brother :( which is kinda gay but in ways, I was the kid who always had the new stuff and the bro just inherited it from me. So my plan is to get a job after hsc and go on a plan for myself! (:

One more exam to go and im a free little birdy for a week before I hafto get my act together for hsc. My heart races when I think abt how I'm gonna do in the hsc.. Anyways toodle oo my little bunny rabbits

2011-08-09T13:03:00.001+10:00

There are those days where you realise who your true friends are. The ones that put you first and the ones that you put you last.

day two: how did you meet?

2011-08-01T19:44:00.000+10:00

Well that's a funny story ish. I bought him as a slave. It's not as dirty as it sounds though x) year 12's have a day where they are in groups and dress up and get sold to people to raise money for their formal. It's basically something like a fundraiser. Anyways me and Anna and the Asian girls bought the 'beauty and the geek' group. My boyfriend was somehow unfortunately in that group.

We were in anna's class and I sat with my slaves. This is the best part. Cos I was a bored kid I started to put skittles in his hair cos it was so fluffy and big. The funny thing was he didn't really notice it til i had placed like 10 or something on his head. And my friends is the story of how I met my boyfriend.

Although he was in lurveeeee with another girl when I met him :( *sad music plays* but that's totally fine cos I had my Cheryl (:

day one: why do you love your bf/gf.

2011-07-31T23:44:00.001+10:00

Why do I love my boyfriend huh? I dunno why I do actually. He's not very dependable. He has a big bottom! And not very bright. Nah nah. He's one of the most sweetest guys I know when he wants to be. Hes not always dependable but is always there when trouble arises. He may not always be able to buy what I want but is always able to get me what I need. He ditches me for his friends and I should get a sorry gift *hint hint* everytime that he does.

I dunno. Honestly I feel completely comfortable around him and I don't know why. I can fart, burp and even smell like a dude in front of him and he would giggle like a little girl. Well most times I just hope to fart so I can Dutch oven him and most times it doesn't work except for that time where I farted into the fan x)

It's the things that we've been through together and how much we've accomplished (which isnt very much) and I guess maybe miracles do exist. But I'm not saying that he's a miracle. I'm saying I'm the miracle teheheheh

Iunno it's the fact that he can imagine us living in a kombi and bathing ourselves at the local pool, makes me think oh boy, maybe we really are head over heels for each other. Despite our arguments and petty little fights, we seem to pull through and iunno it makes you think what is it? that special little thing that we fight for in each other to stay together?

I guess that's why I love my boyfriend or at the very least like him to deathhhhh.

2011-07-21T19:53:00.001+10:00

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FALLING IN LOVE 10 CHALLENGE

2011-07-21T16:09:00.000+10:00

day one: why do you love your bf/gf.
day two: how did you meet?
day three: show a picture of your bf/gf.
day four: do you remember what you first spoke about? if so what?
day five: show a picture with you and your bf/gf.
day six: show something your bf/gf bought you.
day seven: write your bf/gf a personal poem!
day eight: explain what your future would be like?
day nine: describe love.
day ten: print screen a conversation with your bf/gf.

2011-07-21T16:06:00.000+10:00

I’m loud.
I’m sarcastic.
I cry easily.
I have a bad temper.
I’m easy to get along with.
I have more enemies than friends.
I’ve smoked
I drink coffee.
I clean my room daily.

My appearance:

I wear make-up.
I wear a piece of jewelry at all times.
I wear contacts.
I wear glasses.
I have braces.
I change my hair color often.
I have a piercing.
I have small feet.

Relationships:

I’m in a relationship now.
I’m single.
I’m crushin’.
I’ve missed an ex before.
I’m always scared of being hurt.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve been in love more than two times.
I believe in love at first sight.

Friendships:

I have a best friend.
I have at least ten REAL friends.
I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
I’ve beaten up a friend.
I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences:

I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve taken a taxi.
I’ve taken a city bus.
I’ve taken a school bus.
I’ve made a speech.
I’ve been in some sort of club.

Music:

I listen to R&B.
I listen to pop.
I listen to techno.
I listen to rock.
I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
I download music.
I buy CD’s.

Family Life:

I get along with both of my parents for the most part.
My biological parents are still together.
I have at least one brother.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve made my parents cry.
I’ve lied to my parents.
I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.

Hair:

I’ve had streaks.
I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
I’ve been blonde.
I’ve had black.
I’ve been red.
I use conditioner.
I’ve curled my hair.
I’ve straightened my hair.

16 months + 1 day

2011-07-18T01:14:00.001+10:00

We have gone out together for like heaps long now and yes I'm still very proud to say you are my boyfriend. I'll never be ashamed bcos you think you're sexy and I like a confident man ;) iunno I just realised how long we've been together and it just seems crazy. Like I couldn't even keep a pet for this long! But I am very happy.

Despite our arguments abt worthless things *ahem* not all the time though. But yerh, we've made it this far so that must say something abt us. Today we went to watch HP7 part 2. It's the first time ive seen you in weeks and tbh, I really wanted to give you a really long bear hug. But yerh, I'm not really a PDA person. Well I don't like to be but I promise next time I'll hug you for so long, you'll be glued to me. Most preferably wrapped around your leg so you won't be able to leave me.

I don't like it when you hafto leave :( it makes me feel that the next I see you, things might be different. But it's okay. You can buy me a car to make me feel better abt myself :) anyways I just wanted you to eventually read this and know that I kinda, in a really teeny tiny way, miss your bottom.. But at least I know you l-l-l-l-love me right? :)

2011-07-17T22:07:00.002+10:00

If you followers out there really love me. You guys would check out my new store.

http://jgm-store.tumblr.com/

Boredom

2011-07-17T01:09:00.001+10:00

SEVEN THINGS YOU WILL FIND IN YOUR ROOM:
1. Computer
2. Bed
3. Dweena & Mister Snugglepuffs
4. Wardrobe
5. Windows
6. Bags
7. DSLR Camera

SEVEN RELATIONSHIP QUESTIONS:
1. Do You Like Anyone? I like to think so
2. Does Someone Like You? Yerh I have a stalker
3. Last Kiss? Wow, i durno. Last year? Jokes. Tmrw ;)
4. Been Lead On? Not that I'm aware of
5. Been Cheated On? Yes. My boyfriend is always checking out other cars. It hurts my feelings.
6. Want A Relationship? Not sure, probably
7. Wanna Get Married? Sometime in the future

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT:
1. MOBILE PHONE!
2. Computer
3. Internet
4. Dweena & Mister Snugglepuffs
5. Money
6. Family + Friends
7. Camera

SEVEN THINGS ON YOUR MIND:
1. I get to see my boyfriend tmrw! Yay!
2. I hate having my period
3. I miss being young
4. I hope people will buy things from my store
5. I should sleep
6. Its 1am already.
7. I need a drink.

SEVEN OTHER THINGS - DO YOU:
1. Believe In God? Yes
2. Had A Dream Come True? Not so sure.
3. Read The Newspaper? Nup.
4. Get Enough Sleep Everyday? I guess so.
5. Have A Best Friend? I like to think so.
6. Take A Bath Daily? Durh Fred.
7. Wish On Stars? Sometimes. Hoping.

SEVEN HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Fallen In Love? Yerh.
2. Kissed Someone Of The Same Sex? Yes..
3. Hooked Up With Someone Who Had A BF/GF? ehh.?
4. Been To A Bonfire? Nup.
5. Ran Away From Home? Meh.
6. Played Strip Poker? Yup.
7. Pulled An All Nighter? Yerh.

SEVEN THINGS IN THE LAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU:
1. Cried? Yerh. Tv Shows can be rather dramatic :(
2. Had Fun? In ways yerh
3. Been Kissed? Nope.
4. Felt Stupid? Yerh.
5. Talked To An Ex? No
6. Missed Someone? Definitely.
7. Listened To Music? Yerh.

RED : ANGER
1. Are You Currently Mad At Someone? Nope.
2. Which Of Your family Members Have The Worst temper? Mom. Of course.
3. Have You Ever Thrown Something At Anyone? Yes.
4. Does Your Face Turn Red When You’re Angry? I don't know. I know i cry when im ticked. LOLS.
5. When You’re Mad Do You Prefer To Stare Angrily Or Yell? I'm stuck between the two. LOL.

ORANGE : (S)EXCITEMENT
1. Has Anyone Ever Thrown A Surprise Party For You? I wish.
2. Are You Easily Excited? Sometimes.
3. What Event Is Coming Up That You Are Looking Forward To? Movies tmrw with the boyfriend
4. If You Won A Million Dollars, What Will Be Your First Thought? ..WEEEEE BANANA MONKEYS
5. What Would Make You The Happiest Right Now? My boyfriend buying me a gift 8)

YELLOW : SELF DISCOVERY
1. Full Name: Thanh Melanie Thi Ngoc Hoang
2. Birthday: 11th May.
3. What’s Your Main Goal In Life? To be successful. Happiness is the key.
4. Do You Want To Have Children? Yuppp.
5. How Do You Want To Die? Peacefully. When I'm like sleeping or something

BLUE : SADNESS
1. When Is The Last Time You Cried? Today. Brooke got bashed on one tree hill :'(
2. What Is The Saddest Thing That Is Happening Right Now? One Tree Hill
3. Do You Usually Cry/Get Depressed When Something Doesn’t Happen Your Way? Yerh
4. Has Anyone Made You Cry In The Last 24 Hours? Yerh, like I said tv shows can be dramatic
5. When You Are Sad, What Do You Do? Depends. Usually hibernate.

PINK : LOVE
1. Do You Have A Crush On One Of Your Friends? Nuoo
2. Do You Believe At Love At First Sight? Not really.
3. When You See Your Crush, Do You Act Differently Around Him/Her? I don't know.
4. Do You Have A Girlfriend/Boyfriend? Yes. Girlfriend.
5. Do You Believe Everyone Has A Soulmate? Yerh. It can be an other half or a best friend. Just someone who understands you and knows you thoroughly enough to be one step ahead of you cos they know you that well.

Struggling

2011-07-16T02:07:00.001+10:00

Well I just looked at the calendar for the first time in weeks and it said it was Saturday 16th and it's funny cos it's 2am right now and I'm just like omg it's Sunday now. It's my 16 month anni. Then I just realised that it's still the 16th and that I'm a total douchebag. Lols I was gonna go on my boyfriends blog and leave him something. Now I just feel stupid. Life is cruel. Anyways happy that I'm gonna be purchasing 2 cute dresses soon.

I think I know what I want for my formal. Dress-wise. Which is good I think. Now to save $69 or the boyfriend can pay for it 8) jokeeess. I think I'm gonna buy a money jar and put coins and notes in there so I can't take them out again cos seriously I really need to save and not spend. Hafto buy the formal tickets for ze boyfriend and myself. The pretty formal dress and of course a cute present for the boyfriend for putting up with me. Oh oh and the boyfriend's birthdayyyyy. Also my holiday to the gold coast at the end of the year!!!

Wow when I think abt it, that's a lot of money.. Shit.. Gotta really start saving up. Oh the beach house as well if it's still on and if my mom let's me go. Where are people shitting out all this money frommm? If only my mom let's me get a job -.-

3-4 weeks left.. Trials. Then after that 2 months til hsc. I can seriously not see myself doing well in it. I can't even answer that many questions in the hsc past papers right now. What am I gonna do? I am struggling heaps man. I really got to get my shit together :( I always say that but I hardly do. Maybe after I wake up today and finish my chores. I might start doing some revision for chemistry. Then if I'm a really smart energetic kid, I'll do a bit of bio.

Striking Up a Conversation

2011-07-14T11:34:00.001+10:00

Have I become that boring that I can't strike up a convo that'll last longer than 5 mins. I've realized that I somewhat don't want to socialize at all anymore. Iunno but I wish since I don't feel like socializing I can motivate myself in studying but that doesn't seem to be working. Ahh the beauty of life

Plans

2011-07-12T20:04:00.000+10:00

It just seems that lately no plans never seems to go to plan. But hey i guess thats bcos its year 12. Or maybe karma has something against me. Either way, everything seems so gay. Im just not bothered anymore. I guess lately ive been proven that i should just stop trying bcos my efforts are going to waste.

2011-07-12T18:19:00.002+10:00

you smell, i smell, we both smell like seashells

love the boyfriend :)

2011-07-11T22:11:00.002+10:00

ITS OFFICIALLY OUT! I really like the style of the music video thats why x)

Chalk Draw Me

2011-07-10T20:59:00.000+10:00

Hello there world. Have you missed me? I havent really.

Well the past week or so have been edgy and i dunno. Well today i bought a new whiteboard, giant chalk and a new colouring in book. I was really excited to start colouring then i remembered i left my colouring in pencils at the boyfriends. Umms, so im gonna be chilling out with baozo tmrw. A little catching up to do is a must! And a lot of help is needed. Then on tuesday i think im gonna go back to bankstown to check out the dresses thats on sale. I saw a dress for nearly 40 and it was okay but i really liked the colour. It was a lilac kind of colour. There was also another colour in a really similar colour for 70.

Ive been watching one tree hill lately and i loveeee it. Its so dramatic and makes you cry even when you dont want to. Anyways my so-called plan for the holidays to study has likee totally flown out of the window. My motivation only a few steps behind it. I went to check out the toy sales at big w and kmart and to be honest, nothing really struck my attention. Well to be honest i felt really cheap but oh wells!

Anyways ive got 2 assignments waiting for me

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Belly Fat

2011-07-02T23:59:00.000+10:00

Dont you just love it when you catch up with an old friend and its as though we havent changed at all? Well my good friend just texted me earlier asking to come over to catch up. And hey why not? Its a saturday night, the boyfriend is out. I deserve a little fun as well. Anyways we talked about quite a few stuff and i look like a total mess and i am not lying but i still felt comfortable in ways i cannot explain.

We talked abt the old times and its reminded me a lot of the really stupid things i used to do and loved. Im just really glad hes still my friend cos its so hard to come across people like that nowadays. Mainly since im really anti-social. Ive realised that ive gone through so much and yet it felt like all the things i had gone through was a million years ago.

Anyways wow i just gained like so much followers on tumblr! Yaaay!

Sometimes we lie, cos the truth hurts too much.

Oh The Joy

2011-07-02T16:00:00.000+10:00

Its july and its surprising. The 7th month of the year. MY GOSH theres like 3-4 months til the HSC. And seriously im panicking :( and look at what im doing.. Im on tumblr reblogging stuff -.- Anyways ive just been feeling rather reluctant to actually blog abt anything. And i still kinda am cos i dont know what to write but hey i still love blogging.

Umms this morning when i was cleaning my room, i found some old christmas cards from like year 8. And it made me feel really good abt myself. It was weird but like i loved it. Cos in year 8 i moved schools, then after that i moved up to the top class (not being modest at all hohohohoho) anyways i had only been in their class for like a term i guess and for just a term, they wrote really nice stuff. I want to thank angie, rae and tanya for writing those cards. Though i dont want to say thanks to a certain someone cos they said what i wrote to them as a christmas card was dumb :( YOURE IN MY BAD LIST. TUH!

Omgosh its toys salessss!! I cant wait til i get to go check it out before the sales ends. Theres this really cute big fat monkey which comes with a baby monkey for only $20!! Well thats still a lot.. Buts its 100cm big! YUP THATS RIGHT. And theres this galaxy/fairy light which you turn on when its dark and it projects starry kind of lights onto your walls. Time to scavenge for money before the toy sales ends.

Oh and geri if youre reading this! I hope you got me that colouring book you said you would get me *stares*

Life

2011-07-01T13:03:00.001+10:00

Since when did everything get so complicated. Just one thing after another.. How do people cope with it

2011-06-30T19:02:00.000+10:00

Things are so different. I feel that there isnt anything left to do but just close my eyes and wait it out.

2011-06-28T17:48:00.000+10:00

Cant wait til the music video comes out. It looks sooooo cuteee!

Hopes for the Future

2011-06-19T19:44:00.001+10:00

So its been far too long since ive blogged properly. i miss it in a way that i cannot describe. life has been harsh; well is gonna be harsh. i have my work placement this week then when i return to school, 2 assessments will be waiting for me. then the holidays will be here and i wont have time to look for my formal dress cos i'll be doing my assessments and studying for my trials. well at the very least try to. ughh i just dont know what im gonna do y'know?

well today i went to bankstown markets. grabbed a few stuff. got these pretty heels for 4 bucks and a couple of otherr stuff. my day was fairly okay. not so psyked for tmrw. like first day of work placement.. YOU DONT KNOW ANYONE. but hopefully i'll make a friend or two. FINGERS CROSSED!

ive been thinking of what type of hairstyle i should have. Like ive got bangs atm and whenever i curl my hair it makes me look like im 5 in a way. well i basically look like a china doll. but i lurveee my hair curly/wavy. so im thinking maybe i should grow my fringe out and get a side fringe? i hate having a long face. so hard to work with.

OH im almost finished my pokemon game in a way. just need to level my pokemons so theyre like > level 58-60ish. But yerh i dont know what else to talk abt. like theres heaps but just too many. ahhh wells.

I promise to myself that one day i'll explore the world and capture it all. But for now i'll be stuck in this busy place.

2011-06-19T19:24:00.000+10:00

One day i'll look back at my life and i'll tell myself yerh i did have a pretty good life. Though i know that now and then things can be rough but hey, one day when i look back i hope i dont look back with regrets.

Ohh Yerh

2011-06-08T22:36:00.000+10:00

Heey y'all. Omgosh iunno i feel that for the rest of this week including the weekend, its gonna be good. Hopefully tmrw there is 7/11 dollar day and im gonna buy so much junk! Then on friday night i shall be attending the vivid festival and check out the pretty lights that i hear so much abt. Its gonna be spectacular. Im really looking forward to it. Im just not looking forward to the weather. Its gonna be very cold i reckon. But i hope that wont spoil my night. And yes, very surprisingly my mother lets me go. Maybe the fact that im getting driven there. But yes. Then the weekend comes. I shall be going dress shopping. Im still iffy abt the colour of my dress. What do you guys think i should wear? But i think im sticking to short dress cos from what i heard, a long dress gets in the way. And i dont know if i should leave my hair down or not? Im thinking i should leave it down..?

anyways its late

Bruno Mars - The Lazy Song

2011-06-07T17:10:00.000+10:00

i know im a tad delayed but this song is a genius. i love the guys in the monkey masks.

2011-06-05T22:44:00.001+10:00

I'm still a kid. Give me a break.

My Day

2011-06-04T20:18:00.000+10:00

Im sitting here minding my own business and my mother walks in to announce that she booked a flight to america with my grandparents to leave in a month. She said that it is solely based on my attitude for this whole 4 weeks on whether she is going or not. Now you guys may be thinking, shit i better be on my best behaviour but nups thats not how its gonna work. To her, if im on my best behaviour she is going to stay. And vice versa. Weird huh? And to top it off, if she goes she wont be back for 6 months. And when you think abt it, in 6 months ive graduated high school, completed my hsc AND attended my formal. Same goes to my brother.

Like most of you would be cheering if you got to stay at home by yourself and what not but to miss nearly all that? Isnt that a tad too much? But you know what? Whatever.

Most parents think just bcos we're young, we shouldnt have boyfriends or girlfriends yerh? Most probably cos they fear we'll get hurt? Parents. The older you get, determines how theyre gonna treat you.

Meh who cares abt all that. Im watching a bunch of movies. Yeeee. Kind of getting around to my hwk. Im hoping to save up enough money to buy a curling iron soon! What else.. I want to go shopping again sometime soon. Mid-year sales should be on soon and then mid-season sales! Oh and the lovely sales in between them should be ever so pretty. And the end of financial year thing is happening? Dunno what that is but yaay!

Oh and i sent my new comp off today to the company. I feel rather saddd. The guy said ishould get it back in abt a week or 2. If not imma come back and complain! But yerh i guess thats abt it.

2011-06-03T19:57:00.004+10:00

i like licking my boyfriends butt

Thin Image

2011-06-02T21:25:00.000+10:00

I was on tumblr and i was looking around. Ive noticed that many of my followers are into those thin models. Like no offense, but how do you see beauty in that? I get that their clothes may be nice and pretty but how does being that thin look attractive? Iunno, this is my opinion. Many of you's out there may think that that kind of body is the "ideal" type but really, is skin and bones really that attractive to look at..? Ive got to be honest, i do want to be thinner. Like with a smaller waist and flatter belly but i still like some meat on me. I guess everyone is beautiful but to go to extraordinary lengths to do unbelievable things makes me feel sad in a way. I suppose what i want to say is be you. It is hard in today's society but who are we kidding, we still have a say in everything we do so why not use that advantage we are given. Yerhh i just wanted to say that. Anywhos toodles.

What The Picture Says

2011-06-01T20:31:00.000+10:00

Hello dear bloggers. So today was like the biggest bludge ever! Like no joke, i had only one proper class today. All my other teachers were absent. The day was pretty much a drag.. Kind of.. Talked a lot to my friends one-on-one though. Twas pretty good. Iunno. Came home to my mother and told her abt my day. First thing she says "why didnt you come home and help me around the house then!" LOLS! I then told her the only class i had was on the last period. Which is a lie. TEHEHEHEHE. Im so rebel.

I guess theres not much to say. Its the first day of june. The first day of winter. And in my pov, it has lived up to its expectations. Yes its cold. I dont know. Its just one of those days yknow? Just feelin' lazy.

im fly like that

2011-05-30T20:13:00.000+10:00

You Know You Love Me

2011-05-27T18:51:00.000+10:00

Hellooooooooooo there! I remember ages agooo i went on a movies marathon spree kind of thing and i'd like post abt it. Hah! Died after like 5 posts. Iunno it just came to my head cos im dling a bunch of new movies. Im becoming such a dull person. So so dull :( Just 5 more months till HSC. How scary. Its funny to see year 10's worry abt school cert. I remember back in the days when i worried, but it was really ironic cos i never went to school.

Its kinda good to see my brother kinda just cruising but im a tad worried that its gonna be like that for the rest of his high school life. Right now im just sitting on my butt. Just kind of figuring out what to do. I promise i shall photo spam soon! I want to use my textas and do something but im not sure what? I need to get my new computer fixed. Cant believe its screwed up already. Gotta remind myself this weekend.

Oh yes, i asked my mother abt going gold coast at the end of the year and she said yes! YAAY! She said she'll pay as well haw haw haw.

Im kinda scared. Knowing the fact that my life is gonna continue to move forward with every minute that passes. Knowing that im gonna change somehow after i leave high school makes me worry. What if i turn into someone i never wanted to? Ahhh what am i worrying abt? I SHOULD CHILLAX AND RELAX MY SACKS. LOOOOOOOOOOLS :D

Awkwarddd

2011-05-23T22:49:00.001+10:00

So like my aunt is over and I'm sharing my bed with my cousin. Like there isn't anything wrong with that but why are they here again? Anyways totally off the topic, I feel so dead but I don't feel like sleeping. Got morning class tmrw yuck.

Omgosh my itouch's back is sooo scratched :( it makes me want to cry. Took the back cover off for a few hours and ta-daa.

I want the convenience of the net on my itouch. Ughhhhhh my thumbs are too fat for typing on a touch screen. Keep missing the letters. I think that's all for now. Tata lovelies.

Morning

2011-05-20T07:28:00.001+10:00

Another Morning, another day that's going to pass. So i hafto get up and be at bankstown before 8.30 and you guys are thinking why. Well thats for me to know and for you to find out :)

I hope today will be alright. Anyways write soon x

Ola Amigos

2011-05-17T14:04:00.001+10:00

I'm stuck outside my place right now and no one is home. Been tryna call my brother but that retard won't pick up ughhhhhh! Thank gosh I have the itouch and nintendo :) I'm supposed to have finished doing the dishes, thrown out the garbage and pay the bills right now but nups im sitting outside my apartment right now like an idiot.

I'm sitting on my ipt book right now cos the carpet outside my place is gross and I hate ipt x)

Dunno what to do right now but to wait for ze brother to come home. Thank goodness I'm near my modem to get wireless net tehehehe :3

Over and out amigos

17 and PROUD!

2011-05-16T23:34:00.001+10:00

Hello dear bloggers. Here I am back from the dead. I have so much to talk abt but I'll just stick to one thing. On Sunday I went to featherdale wildlife park!! It was awesome! I bought koala ears that you clip onto your hair :D 'twas a very fun-filled exciting day with my lovely friends, sibling and lover boy. We came home earlier than expected and came back to my place where 3 couples resided lools. It was pretty alright. Had kfc for dinner yummo!

Sydneys been a total ass with the weather. Totally freezing my ass off and like well actually I don't think I'm gonna get sick.. I get the flu shot or whatever.

Anyways my birthday present from the gers/John was a scrapbook with photos in it already and I absolutely adore the colour! It's like a teal/aqua colour. My present from the boyfriend is matching earrings to my bracelet :3 it's pretty cute cos they're studs. Tehehehe get it? Studs? :3 He also got me a hot water bottle. Yay! I'm using it right now as I type on my trusty itouch. And he got me a slice of mars cheesecake and mortal sin! Yummo! If you have a love for chocolate and creamy things with a layer of biscuit crumbs, you are gonna melt all the way to hell!

Winter/autumn is being horrible to my skin. It's sooo dry it's not cool. I think tmrw is gonna bring a lot for me. So wish me luck guys!

I miss you blog x

Cold Fingers

2011-05-04T18:35:00.000+10:00

You know, after having like a rough patch, you really do realise who you can and cannot rely on. Those who are always there constantly and those who dont even notice whether you're there or not. Just this past week or so has made me think a lot and i guess thats abt it. Other than that, school hasnt been that harsh on me. Well not yet and i guess im quite content with that. I got one of my assessments out of the way! One more to finish this week. Doing my hospitality assignment in class. Apparently my chem is an in class assessment so like that means all i hafto worry abt is my bio. Wait no not really. I dont know lools

So i realised my hsc is gonna be in 5 months like no joke and im panicking. Like honestly im totally shit at chem. Im hoping by studying and reading over my notes a little more, im gonna do okay. But i dont know if thats gonna work. Anyways ive been tryna look for a job, so if you guys know a place that needs someone, hook me up ;)

Hi There

2011-04-30T11:37:00.000+10:00

hi there bloggers! it is i, the one and only, the melinatorrrrr!

lools umms, i dunno.

here watch this.

Strangers, again

2011-04-25T16:44:00.000+10:00

This made me think a lot. But i love the box of random stufff. And i want a pretty photo frame with a picture of me and the boyfriend x) I guess through all this, the ending was really touching.. Anywhos, au revior my minions

2011-04-20T23:03:00.002+10:00

Normality - being within certain limits that define the range of normal functioning

imscared..

2011-04-19T16:57:00.001+10:00

i find it impossible not to love you.. oh yeh :3

i know you like me

2011-04-18T11:12:00.001+10:00

i love you

The Way You Are - David Choi & Kina Grannis

2011-04-16T17:48:00.000+10:00

Contemporary Scientific and Technological Contexts

2011-04-13T12:09:00.000+10:00

Im sitting here on a wednesday afternoon (cos it just turned 12, im so cool haw haw haw) watching irobot, tryna grasp the concept of contemporary scientific and technological contexts from it. Like i can see it but its hard to just pull out a scene from it bcos the whole movie is based on it. Get me ish? Well i should be in school right now, but i cant so i guess im tryna do my part at home.

Im hoping to get at least bits and pieces done. Soo iunno what to write atm. I went through my school diary to realise i have quite a few things to do and catch up on. I hafto get started on my ipt assessment soon. English is a group assessment but i fear its gonna be harder than it looks with 4 people in the group. Is it easier to have more in the group when it comes to speeches? Or is individual work easier? But either way, i hate speeches. I have a tendency to stutter and have a quiver in my voice. Sometimes my legs start to shake and my arms tremble. I remember in primary school, i loveeeddd speeches and stuff. But i guess when i got into high school, i lost confidence in ways i cannot explain. Its just that nervous feeling i cant seem to shake off. But as always, i hope my actual work pulls my marks up.

This reminds me, i have a speech to do for bio sometimes this term or next.

Ive finally come to my realisation that i shouldnt be sitting around watching scary vampire tv shows when i should actually be finishing off my work. Ughh the pain. But hey, at least i have something to look forward to on friday. Im pretty sure my mother said yes to daniel's bbq.

Say Whatchu Want

2011-04-11T14:15:00.001+10:00

Sooo i was just reading my boyfriends blog and i realised it made no sense whatsoever. YERH THATS RIGHT I CALLED YOU STUPID. Kidding. Youre very smart. It just didnt make sense cos i saw you yesterday and it wrote that you were gonna see me today. OMGOSH youre cheating on me D:

Anyways been hibernating in my bedroom watching tv shows. Or soap operas as many would call it. Atm, im on a vampire diaries marathon. I think after this imma finish everybody hates chris and then get back to two guys and a girl.

Umms ive noticed that i dont take many pictures with the boyfriend and it disappoints me cos i think this was the last photo i took with him which was probably a month ago. And the one before that was probably a couple of months - maybe more?

I guess all ive got to say is exams are over so im more or less relieved now but i have a bunch of assessments that i dont awnt to touch. I spent tuesday with the boyfriend, going around macarthur. Then he took me out for lunch on thursday at reflection cafe. And yesterday we went bargain hunting. Came home with a dancing lion and a varsity jacket :)

I suppose in a way im kinda glad that ive been home lately relaxing but at the same time i wanna go out and do all sorts of spontaneous things. Oh wells, what am i gonna do abt it right? Ohhh yerhhh i also got bangs. It makes me look like im 5 again to be honest. Cos i swear i look like how i looked when i was in kindy. I dont think its a bad thing but its kinda creeepy.

Ive still got a bunch of photos on my camera just waiting to be uploaded! Just kinda y'know lazy.... OH OH i made my hair into like a bow and it felt awesome :D but.. to my disappointment i think the boyfriend didnt like it tuhhh! Cos he was like "i like your hair longer". Yerhhh i totally understand! Understand that youre just jealous you couldnt pull off that hairdo! I wish i can write more but im just itching to watch the rest of vampire diaries just so i can finish off my other tv shows. Im dling way more than i can watch ahahahahha. But hey, i find it rather fun x)

Thats all folks. You know you love me. xoxo gossip girl

OH YERH, i also got this pretty purple watch. Just wanted to brag abt it :)

Bang!

2011-04-08T10:57:00.001+10:00

soo im gonna go get my fringe cut soon. Getting bangs again. I find it common that whenever it hits autumn/winter i get bangs. Anyways totally off the topic, i was wondering what colour dress i should get for formal. I remembered what my english teacher told me, that i should get like a yellow dress cos my skin is very fair..... Yerhh im like a tan yellow mother pho. Lools i'd just look like im going naked XD

My friend anna suggested to wear a long dress but my mother prefers short dresses. Theres just so many to pick from its not funny. I wanna go with a pastel colour, something that isnt so like big and bright. I want something cute and calm-like. Iunnno.

My phone's keypad is harder to type on ive noticed.. My mother wants me to chop off my hair cos she thinks i look like a ghost grudge-like daughter -.- to her disappointment, i aint giving her the satisfaction of a non-ghost-grudge-like daughter x)

I guess thats all for now. I miss my bed x

Your Mother Loves Me

2011-04-06T17:34:00.000+10:00

SOOOO like no more exams for the rest of my lifeeee! Jokes. 3 weeks of holidays *droooolsss* Im just gonna keep things short for now. BACK TO MY HIBERNATION AND TV SHOW MARATHONS! *weeee*

Rulises

2011-04-05T20:57:00.000+10:00

Its nearly 9 and i just wanted to squeeze in a post before i hit the hay sometime soon i think. I dont know? Anyways, random thought - do i like tulips or roses? Tbh, ive never really thought abt it til now. Youre probably thinking why out of all things, those right? Well i dont know. It just kinda appeared infront of me and then i wondered to myself, i feel that flowers are just flowers.. I like photos of flowers? LOLS. Wouldnt it be cute to get a bouquet of polaroid photos of flowers stuck onto bunches of green stems.

LOLS, i dunno. Just a random thought i thought i should share with the whole world of my loneliness thoughts.

Have you ever had that sinking feeling in your chest and in that moment, you feel all flushed? And it weighs you down even more than you feel like gravity is pulling you down? Well i dont feel like that. SOO SUCK ON THAT.

ANYWAYS, I WANNA DO A PHOTOSPAM SOMETIME SOON. I have so many photos locked away on my camera and its just sitting there.. I feel like i need to go out and explore the world a bit more.

I wanna be a wilderness explorer!

My New Love

2011-04-04T15:23:00.002+10:00